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Hahhaaa….Finally I shed my blood for the nation. Hehehee…

Even though I’m already 22 yr old, yet I have never tried donating blood before. The reason for it, hahahaa, i thought it would be very painful and I’m fearful. Even though people told me it’s not painful, but I’ll never believe this statement because how can a man don’t feel pain when the needle is cucuk into his/her flesh?

So, how I changed my mind? Hahhaaa.. It all happen at the NECF prayer camp. One of the pastor said that many of us are willing to shed blood yet not willing to cry, especially the man. Then he gave an example by telling that many time when we are call to donate blood, we are very willing. But when it comes to crying for the situation that the nation is in, we would usually feel reluctant to do it. This situation is very obvious in man, because they believe that I real man should not allow his tears drop easily. When I heard that, deep inside my heart, I said "Sorry God, I don’t even willing to donate my blood or shed my blood for my own nation". And I promise God that I’m going to overcome this fear of mine after I came back from the camp.

So, God is really good la. It happened today that the PDN(Pusat Darah Negara) came to my campus and had a blood donating campaign.  I just happened to pass by there and I met a friend and she just dragged me along for blood donating.

It was really not that scary. Yes, it does pain but the pain was very minor and everyone would be easily bear with  it. So, I donated 450cc. As I chat with the nurse, I found out there PDN is short of blood storage and other than blood, we may donate our plasma and platlet as well. But we need to go to PDN to do it. We are really valuable. Hahhaaa… After donating the blood, ahahaa… I sent sms to friends and ask them to go. And I tell everyone and anyone to go as well whenever I met them. Hahhaaa… It’s really a 360 degree change. It is really not that scary!!! Taking the first step would eventually change everything. And you would realise that it is not that scary and pain at all. It’s a act of loving the community and nation as well.

Now I may say loudly that "I had shed the blood for the nation plus shedding my tears (Prayer time)!!!" Hahhaa..So my next goal, go and sign for organ donation! Hehheeee….

I almost met with an accident last Wednesday!!!

Hahhaa… But now I’m still in one piece. Let me tell you what had happened…

I’m quite famous for driving fast. Usually on federal highway, I would drive 90km/hr at least. This is my normal speed. If I’m in hurry, I would drive even faster. On PLUS, no doubt, I would drive 110 or 120km/hr.

But about two weeks ago, while I was driving on the way to church, I heard a still and gentle voice inside of me. He said:"Joyce, don’t drive too fast." The voice was so gentle until I can’t do anything but obeyed. I know the voice is from God. At first I was so pek chek… cos I’m not used to it. But slowly, I adapted to it, somehow. I slowed down my speed to 60 or 70km/hr.

So last Wednesday, it was Ivy’s birthday, so we went to Serdang for steamboat. My car is supposed to meet another car at Serdang ktm station. I was late. They were there waiting for us. But because of the voice that I heard 2 weeks ago, I just don’t feel like speeding. Guess what, when I was driving on the road that I’m very familiar with (I use this same road to church which is in Serdang also), at a sharp corner, a waja stopped at the roadside and was putting on its emergency signal. I didn’t notice the car as it was parked right after the sharp corner. So I was so shocked when I saw it. I looked at the rear mirror and the side mirror, the cars at the back were very fast. I can’t just stop like that. Even if I press the brake until the end, I might not be able to stop on time before I bang onto the car either.

Thank God I didn’t speed that day. As I was driving slow, I get the time to react correctly. I slowed down the car and turned into another lane a bit (makan orang punya lane a bit) and I avoided the waja successfully. That was really close. If I was driving at my normal speed, I think even if I pressed the brake from sitting to standing position, I doubt that I would be able to stop  the car on time. Even if I get to stop it and avoided the waja on time, the cars that were coming from the back might have banged into my car also.

If not because of the voice that I heard, I think I might end up in heaven already. But obviously the Lord don’t want to see me there yet. hahahaaa… If I get back to heaven, I don’t think that is too bad because it is a better place. But then since God doesn’t want me to go back yet, I might end up in hospital for months instead of heaven then.. That is more terrible. I gotta cope with all the pain, guilt ( there was another 3 persons in the car) and others.

Thank God for loving me. Surely with long life He shall satisfy me and His arms are never too short to save!!!

Praise the Lord!!!

God healed me!!!

Last sunday I went to the church family day in Putrajaya. We had a telematch before the sunday service got started. So there was a game where by a ping pong is placed inside the cup and we need to blow it out. So I blown it with all might and all my strength… Suddenly my heart pain… I think I blown it too hard liao and it was over what my heart can tahan. From tht moment onwards whenever I had a deeeep breath, my heart pain. I just like something kena sumbat.

I didn’t really sit down and pray. I just simply said:"Lord, heal me le…" Hahahaaa….

So, on Monday night i went to teh church prayer meeting. After the praise and worship(for nonbelievers, praise and worship is where a session we sing praise songs and worship songs before any preaching or sharing in a christian meeting), I realised tht the pain had gone. I don’t feel any pain anymore whenever I had a deep breath!!! God had healed me!!!

Praise God! Jesus is alive!!!

Happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy

Sometimes, we just dun need reasons to be happy…

HAhahhahaaa

Praise God!!!!!!!!

Went back home last week. Eventhough i went back on thursday night and back to Bangi on Sat evening, yet I wld like to grade this trip be the most joyful and enjoyable trip. Still remember that I was sick during the CNY, so didn’t really enjoy myself last trip.

Things that I managed to do are:
1. Finally I get to go back, so I’ll be able to report whatever things that had happened in BP to my uncle in the States dy. Surely that would be a lot of things to share with him.

2. Went to the market with my mum at 6am, fri morning. I thought that I would be able to sleep late once I got home, but I was wrong. But anyway, I enjoyed it. It has been qt sometime since I last went to wet market. If I’m not mistaken the last time that I did it was during the chinese new year. My mum had seen the dentist and her toothache had left. And she may talk a lot throughout the time I spent at home. She shared lot of things with me as well.

3. My dad is happy with his new job. And I managed to get some pocket money from him. Yeah!!! Yet he didn’t talk much this round. This is weird… because he is supposed to be one of the most talkative in the family. Hahaaa…. Basically, everyone in my family r talkative. Hahahaaa…

4. Visited my granpa(wai gong). And he was cleaning up the fish when I reached. He looks good. My grandma(wai po) is still coughing and she lost quite some weight. I managed to lay hands and prayed for her this round. Then went to my granny’s (ah ma) house. I checked on her just to make sure that she had recover from the diarrhoea. When I mentioned bout it, she was able to tell me that how sad she is as it spent quite some money because of it. By the time she started to be calculative about money, I know she had recovered fully. Hahahaaa… Then went to ah gong’s house. Nobody came out and answered the door after we have shouted for quite some time, so I climbed in when there was no one around. Hahahaa…. Finally my grandpa came out. He was bathing just now. He looks great also. The scar that he got from the fell was not obvious. In fact, if he didn’t point to me, I wouldn’t have founded it.

5. I had dinner with my aunt on fri and breakfast on sat. we had the best bak kut teh in the town on sat morning. We ate together with her co-workers as well. We shared quite a lot of things. Then, the two of us proceed our fellowship at my aunt place. She told me about some of her experiences when she first stepped into her full time ministry. I shared with her bout what I encountered here in bangi. She even help me in trimming my hair.

6. I didn’t get to meet my care group leader this round cos she was in KL for a seminar. Hoping that I’ll get to meet her next round.

7. My two young brothers are doing fine. The elder one was busy to promote his product and attending seminar. Then the yougest one was sharing bout what he wants to do in 2 years time. He is very encouraging as he planned to open a shop with his friends. Eventhough he sound like they didn’t really sit down and plan but what I think is it’s consider good because he is willing to spend  some time and think about it at least. A man become great when he has a dream!!! He’s more mature now.

8. I had a great lateh session with my gang–swee ting, pea kee, huei huei, sook fang and kenny. I just duno why everytime when we had our girls’ lateh, kenny wld appear. Maybe we already treat him as one of us. Eventhough we may have girls’ talk along the way, he still managed to join us by telling us what wld men think in tht specific situation. Hahhaa… And we laugh and laugh and laugh along the way.

9. I managed to visit my 3th aunt, 4th aunt and 5th aunt as well. They all are my mum’s sisters. My mum got 9 siblings all together, 5 girls and 4 boys. We really had a great time during the tea time. We shared bout family issues. Hahaaa….

10. I managed to do shopping for my own necessities as well. It’s fun because someone else is paying for me. I don’t have to fork in even one cent. Hahahaa…

Praise the Lord for such a wonderful time in BP. Even though it’s tiring cos it was pretty rush for me. But I’m always happy to see that everyone in the family are doing GREAT!!!

Hahahaaa…. Finally I may online again using my own laptop liao. Heehee…Thanks to Eric for helping me in fixing my laptop after it kena virus. Hoohuho… Eventhough I gotta reinstall some of myprogrammes and I lost some files…

Well, anyway….Tht’s doesn’t seem like tak kena’n the topic….

Hahhaaa…

I’m going back home this Thursday!!! Right after I sit for my last paper for this semester. Hahhaaa…. Finally!

So, the reasons for me to go back:

1. I have not been going back since CNY eventhough I promised my uncle tht I’ll try my best to go back more frequently before he went back to the States.

2. My dad has jz changed his work last month, so i think I should go back and encourage him by spending some of his money. Hahaha…

3. My mum jz got bk from Singapore and she told me tht she’s having toothache when she called me yesterday. So, being a fillial daughter, I should go back right? And I miss my mum’s cooking…

4. Gotta pay my grandparents a visit o. One of my grandmas is coughing since CNY. The other was having diarrhoea before I got bk to UKM after CNY.One of my grandpas fell down last month. Then another one jz had a small operation last month, too.

5. I need to meet up with my aunt what I’ve been going through here and ask her to lay hands and pray for me. I think the Lord has upgraded me somewhere and somehow. Truly experienced God this sem. Yeah!!!

6. My care group leader back in hometown had called me several times and asked me when am I going back… And she requested that I must pay her a visit when I go back and she suggested that we should have fellowship not less than 1 hr.Hahaa… Still remember tht I was rushing when I met her during the CNY. No wonder she complains.

7. My two young brothers seem like getting involved in some sort like direct sales things. So I better go back and have a look at what are they doing actually.

8. Some of my secondary classmates have gone back home liao… So it’s time to lateh again!!! Hahahaha…

9. It’s time to shop…. ahhaaa….

10. I’ll start my industrial training by 7/5 and it will last for 2 months. I don’t think I’ll get to go back frequently throughout the 2 months. So, shouldn’t i grab hold of this great oppurtunity?

Hahahaa… So no matter what.. I’m going back this Thurs…. Don’t stop me!!!

Aiyoh, recently hor, seem like many people tht surrounding me got some problems ler. But how come I’m always the last to realize ler?? Am I mabuk?? Don’t understand? Cannot figure out la….

Sorry hor, if u r down these few days and yet I din take note of it, please dun blame me o. I already tried my best to sense the changes in the surrounding liao, yet still cannot sense it la. My poor senses. Haihhh….

Basically, I’m the kind of person tht if u dun tell me then it will takes me years to come to know it de. So, PLEASE have mercIES on me. Don’t ask how come me so slow de…. How come ppl de reaction sudah like tht liao still cant sense huh??/ Please la, I also wish tht I’m not like tht ma. I also wish tht when u tarik nafas I’ll know what r u thinking liao… But I jz cant. God created me like this, wat to do. I din mean to blame God hoh. So if u got anything wana tell, jz tell me hor. So if u cannot tahan me in certain area, or u cant tahan me in the way i treat u, or things, jz let me noe ok? If u wana praise me or say gd things bout me, jz tell la ya, hahhaaa….. Otherwise I’ll jz treat it as nth happen.

Thank you so much ya. Very very sorry ya!!!

Recently, my mood fluctuates… I saw or discover lots of new things as I turn 22 yrs old this yr. Feel like I have grown old a lot as I stepped into this age. Sometimes it makes me think tht, if I din become a christian, I think I might have commited suicide for few times already. God is the one tht gives me the strength whenever I faced challenges in life. He is the one tht conforts me when I was down. He is the one tht live me up again when the storms overwhelm me.

I love my family more n more as I came to KL n study. It helps me to realise tht home is truly a place where I may take shelther. Recently suffer some sort of homesick. As the eldest of my family, somehow I am the one tht get to share the problem wif my parents the most. Somehow it helps me to realise how noble our parents are. How deep they love us. They always keep the best for the children eventhough most of the time they don express it in words which is a common practise in eastern society.

Problems in life seem to become more and more, harder and harder in life as one grows old. And the problems come from all sort of areas. Area where we had never had any problem before. I used to run away from my problem. I used to have a concept, which is very much like the ostrich. I used to think tht all the problems wld jz fade away as the time passed. I used to expect someone wld pop up in halfway and solve the problem for me. But now I realised I was wrong, absolutely wrong.

Along the way, I forced myself to learn and face the reality, face the problem. And somehow I make it. I think my will power and patience has been upgraded already. Everyone faced problems in their lives. Some face it in studies, some with the family, some in relationship, some with frens, some… But everyone look at it from different dimension. And how we look at it determine who we are going to be tomorrow.

When problems come, I choose to share with God. Pray over it. I choose to focus my mind on His promises. I believe what he said- All things work together is to bless those that are called according to his will, the plan tht He has for me is a plan tht is to propers me and not to harm me, I believe tht He had never leave me nor forsake me. All these promises are the thing tht keeps me going. And I truly experience him as I put my trust in him. He is real!!!

Hey, guys, we need to grow mentally as we grow physically. Life is beautiful! Problems make us grow… Problems make us know ourselves better. Problems make me know how tiny I am actually. Problems let me know how much more God can do n help in my life… Life wld b dull if you dun hv any problems. Don’t u think so… Faced it in a positive manner. And as the time passed by, as you turn around n see wat you have done, you wld be amazed. And you wld be stunned at what you have done. Press on, and you will enjoy the fruit. And YOU SHALL ENJOY THE BEAUTIFUL FRUIT OF YOUR LABOUR!!!!

Love ya. God bless….

new sem loh…

first week is a heavy week, where i run to people n asked them to pray for me… Heart was heavy after attending 2 bible seminars on end time, meeting uncle n exchanged some points of view bout current issue  who came bk fr the States, realised my social responsibility for my community, talk with him bout the family issue until tears dropped off… suddenly seem like grown older in jz a few days time…

2nd week was adapting week.. Truly sat down n think of wat i wana do during this yr:

talk softer(people said my voice is horibly + teribly loud n this makes them v miserable, Hahaa…), be more diligent, diciplined, train my power of focusing, wana hv eyes of details n dun wana b agak agak anymore…

Hoping will get to go home this weekend… Wana settle some problems between my dad n my grandma… If everyone in the family is wiling to forgive n forget, then i think this issue will be solved long long ago… Haih… Please keep this in prayer if u r willing to pray for me…

Til here…

God bless…

Few days ago, I went to lateh with some old pals of my secondary school life. We had a sweet long talk as most of us didn’t see each other for quite some time. Still like before we talked on our recent news, gossip about others, studies and FUTURE…

During the lateh session, I’m glad to know about each one’s info. I’m glad to see that sze boon still a bit ‘sotong sotong’ like that. The word that come from chin fang’s mouth is still very *piang and pengsan’n. Other than that, I get to know some updates about huei huei’s family. Then, I’m very amazed and impressed by the way wui li’s mother described the way she enjoy her holiday. Guess what the mum said… She said wui li is like a woman who just gave birth to a child and is now having confinement at home. Walau eh…Hahaa…  I get to see the hair of pea kee have grown long but her sense of humour is still there.

I feel that even though we had left our secondary school life for about two years already, yet we don’t change much in the way we talk, we see things, and the way we face the world. This is something that I treasure very very much. Some how it showed that we are still sticking onto our principles, not being change by the flow of the world. But we do grow to become more mature…

Every time when chin fang come, she will ask everyone got boyfriend already or not. Hahaa… A question that we know she will surely ask and we will never get to run away from. She acted like she is afraid that we might forget to tell her if we do have one. Apalah orang ini… Then pea kee suddenly told every one the goal in my life is to get married and then stay home and take care of children. Hahhaa… Every one was stunned! They don’t believe what she said. They don’t believe that those words actually come out from my mouth. They thought I wanted to become someone that very successful, someone that will use all of my strength and might to get great achievement in my career. My mum also terkejut when I told her this. Hahahaa…Well, if not because of what God said, I think I would become someone that they think.

Few years back, God spoke to me through the book of Genesis in the Bible. God created Eve, and she was meant for becoming a HELPER of Adam. God said to Adam, you will have dominion over all the things in the world. So, from that time onwards, I believe men should be the one that take lead and women should be the helper. Last time I used to think that men and women can be equal. Whatever things that can be done by men, it can be done by women also. But a lot of time, women takes more effort to achieve what men can achieve or even fail to do it. So, what for to waste these energy leh? The best thing to do it’s to know our position and do our best in it. Since God said women are helper so it shall be in this way. It would never ever be possible for human to do against God’s will! Mau mati ar? The thought of staying at home and taking care of children is because I don’t want to miss out in their growing process. But my mum said, if my husband has finances problem than how? So I replied, get a rich one then only marry lah, hahhaa… or work loh, what to do. But no matter how, I still think that man should be the one taking the lead. So, man it’s time for you to stand up.

Hope that you will get to know me better after reading this. I’m not a person that runs after fame and success in my career actually. Hahahaa…

God bless…